P.S. I have a major obsession/lady crush with Raven 
I’m unsure of what to go to school for. Thankfully my lover is supporting me and I’ll go to advising soon. But still. I feel so worthless lately, things I should’ve done years ago I still haven’t accomplished. What am I good at? My lover says I’m a strong person and I just have to believe in myself but… I can’t. How can I? When all I have to my name is $8.27 in my bank account, and I didn’t even earn the money that that change is from. I wish I was a good enough artist already that I can just make a living off that already. I wish I was pretty enough and had support from my family to model. But I’m not and I don’t. My mom likes my 8(9?) year old cousin modeling though, but not her 18 year old daughter. What. The. Hell. I wish my parents and I got along and we liked each other and really supported each other emotionally and financially. Because just financially isn’t enough. I wish for so much but I still can’t reach anything. At least I have a good lover. All my sadness makes me miss him, but he’s busy today. I wish I could live with him. I just keep hearing the songs Where Should I Go From Here and Reflection in my head. 
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